| for now... |
[May. 14th, 2004|03:49 am] |
change of identity: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) webkid
at least for now - i might revive this again sometime later on. |
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| warm |
[Jan. 28th, 2002|04:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
im just on my way to the train. the sun is out. its fuckin warm. i like it! |
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| gomorrahs season ends |
[Jan. 24th, 2002|08:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | incredibly fuckin pissed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | earth crisis - gomorrahs season ends | ] |
im so fuckin pissed i cant even explain it.
just had this exam - i cant remember ever having been prepared so well for a goddamn exam. i knew what it was about. i knew what i had to do. yet i fuckin failed. what the hell? i cant believe this... there is no way i reached the 33 out of 50 points i had to.
great - so i lose a whole freaking year - cos of this one crappy exam. i cant fuckin believe it. i feel like trashing something. i feel so violent right now. i even put gomorrahs season ends in again. SHIT! i was so fucking close...
marketing of course didnt publish the marks yet - i guess i failed that shit too - law recalled the results due to some errors - great - and i thought i had at least THAT credit. fuck. i feel like trashing something. today i better dont go out... otherwise i might end up revitalizing the sxe terrorforce.
im SICK of studying. im SICK of studying my ass off and getting screwed over by asshole teachers who ask for an amout of knowledge that no fuckin one can put to paper in 70 minutes. just the excersise sheet had 2 small printed pages. 5 excersises - each one between 2 to 5 subquestions. and everything in fuckin sql, uml, physical dataorganisation and bullshit like that. i cannot believe that - i am one of the people who have been working with it for lmy work months before we ever heard about it at university. yet i fail.
this is crap. i dont want no more. dear staff of the data and knowledge engeneering institute: you can kiss my ass! |
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| back in europe |
[Jan. 7th, 2002|01:10 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | muZAK | ] |
ugly people wherever you look! |
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| wish |
[Dec. 29th, 2001|11:47 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  surprised | ] |
had somebandtalk yesterday. at perkins we met. i thought it wouldve been about ryan- but duh - he wasnt even there, so it was pretty much about ME. unexpectedly.
they dont wanna put up with my not being there anymore. tommy wants a new project with me and mike c. - feels like a consolation price to me - even if tomy denies that and says that it would be a full sideband too. oh well... gan wonders if i hadnt said anything about the recording they wouldntve made such a big deal about me. sigh... she had a shitty day too yesterday. poor baby.
anyways - i made clear im not ok with all this and they should sort out their problems first: practice space, ryan,... and then we still can go on in feb. with full force... lets see what happens... the dying midwestern page is getting finished soon. |
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| us and visoa |
[Dec. 28th, 2001|09:41 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | rob - power glove | ] |
so... finally the first entry from the us. and the first one from my new palm meggie got me for xmas. its a cool thing. xmas was really good and we had a good time.
i've been sick off and on. sucky. meg is not all healthy either.
thats it for now... |
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| drunk bastards |
[Dec. 14th, 2001|03:36 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  angry | ] |
3am - and those drunk idiot costudents call me from a party... man... that wouldve been the first night for me to sleep through in like 2 or 3 weeks... if!
where is the sXe terrorforce???
0°F - thats NUTS! |
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| holy shit... im so tired still... |
[Dec. 13th, 2001|09:24 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | jealous | ] |
last night was more like studying and falling asleep in between every now and then...
the test sucked and i totally failed...
33 hours to go... today i was at the vets place. got the certificate - tomorrow just some more grocery and clothing shopping - and then - ARRIVEDERCI...
the ahc forum is literally booming at the moment... thats cool...
i just talked to maille again - it felt really good... shes making plans for us to visit this summer . id really love to do that! |
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| jeeeez |
[Dec. 13th, 2001|04:01 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | pixies - where is my mind (once again) | ] |
this band is going down the drain. i hate everyone complaining about others in my mailbox - im sick of it. seems like theyre all to retarded for each other.
get your stuff together dammit!
nice to know others are having a happy life though. that lightens me up a bit. also makes me a lil melancholic tho... |
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| equality? |
[Dec. 12th, 2001|11:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | soundtrack 2001 | ] |
"we're not going to re-recod the stuff we already have
done. it was such a pain in the ass to record it and
mix it. we put hours ad hours into it and if it was in
vain i'll be kicking myself. it sounds really good,
though. there really is no need to re-do it. we still
have plenty of material to record w/ you. i'm not sure
where we will be able to practice. ryan probably won't
be in the band by the time you get back. i want to
talk to him and ask him what's up, but he doesn't even
have the courtesy to call or write to any of us. i
havent talked to him in over two weeks."
wtf? this is not how everything was supposed to go... everyone i talked to - even mike - said that tommy really has to get his shit together - still he is the one complaining about everyone else. fuck - im pissed. |
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| gimme a break... |
[Dec. 12th, 2001|01:17 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | pale - teenage heaven | ] |
the last two days were more than busy .- i was more at the university than i was at home, had 2 exams and a report and the time i WAS at home i worked mostly... jesus christ... i also had some fights with teachers: maths: i was helping out 2 costudents with a discussion with a teacher and got yelld at for that - what an asshole . just cos hes too stupid to fuckin understand what i mean! and then datamod - ITS A JOKE - i got THREE our ot 15 points for the last excercise - fuckin ey!?! on thursday i got the next exam there and i have to be good at it otherwise i can forget it. we also were up on their institute to complain about the tutors - especially one who is a total asshole - and i think in average everyone who gets graded by his is negative. hes a fuckhead. one of the assistants complained we were too loud there outside of his office - so siegi got all pissed of and yelled back theat WE fuckin PAY for his office so he can work there at all... what assholes are they... whatever...
i need to find out what happened to the 250 bucks from november i was supposed to get from the heimatwerk fuckers - no money on my account yet - but thes say they DID pay me... *sigh*...
ralph also got me a new job... 200 bucke every month for sure - no taxes at all - and some other advantages. and all for keeping the page of the student association ofsalzburg's webpage uptodate. yay... easy money...
i should go on packing - just... hmmm... 4 more days... i cant wait! 4 days? grrr... i really should finish my presents! |
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| schooooooooooooooool sucks dammit |
[Dec. 9th, 2001|09:35 pm] |
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great - just found out i got an english semester exam tomorrow - well... too bad - i also got my big and important history presentation.. . CRAP! |
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| here i announce... |
[Dec. 5th, 2001|05:46 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | weak | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | strike anywhere | ] |
...all my important decisions will be solved in public polls now.
and why not aucion off myself too then? first item: pretty soul, used, oop. make sure to be good to it. its been through a lot... |
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| telll me... |
[Dec. 4th, 2001|02:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blah | ] |
"i missed you - i wish youdve stayed longer last night" - "you had others to talk to anyways...didnt need me....ive gotta go....juice"
am i supposed to understand that? |
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| some news... actually some good ones... |
[Dec. 4th, 2001|08:03 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | jealous | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | marcy playground - sex and candy | ] |
ok... first of all - yay . i passed the algo exam - 11.5 points - whoops - close - but still passed. worked on my homework all nite. talked to some nice people last night - believe it or not - also "create conscoiusness" manuel. man - i missed that kid. hes teacher now and into buddhism. hes gonna get me all his political and animal rights stuff he has left from the distro. also some info on buddhism. i dunno - he will always stay an important person for me.
i also talked to gan. *sigh* - this is so hard right now - im having a hard time dealing with myself - so much confusion - also emotional - and she needs me too. its just hard - but hey - no giving up dammit! there is something worth fighting for...
its 8 - i gotta leave in 45 minutes and still got no sleep - and oh yeah... hehe - got an invitation to maine - i might take it some day - that would be fun. |
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| im officially going insane today.. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2001|12:45 am] |
wtf is wrong with me??? there is no mario anymore - where did my fuckin soul and spirit go??? am i still alive? is it like that when youre dead? no - it should be the other way around - dead body, spirit alive.
??? |
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| i didnt want to |
[Dec. 3rd, 2001|12:16 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | numb | ] |
but i couldnt get around it posting them too
tocotronic - they want to tell us
they want to tell us
they have a soul
they want to make us believe
there is a reason to laugh
they want for sure
that we are happy and
our passion
is myserious for them
they want to tell us
we shouldnt torture ourselves anymore
and theyre already satisfied
when we take the turn cos
for our self pity
they dont have any time
===german===
tocotronic - sie wollen uns erzählen
sie wollen uns erzählen
sie hätten eine seele
sie wollen uns glauben machen
es gäbe was zu lachen
sie wollen ganz bestimmt
dass wir glücklich sind und
unsere leidenschaft
ist ihnen rätselhaft
sie wollen uns erzählen
wir sollen uns nicht mehr quälen
und sie sind schon zufrieden wenn
wir die kurve kriegen denn
für unser selbstmitleid
haben sie keine zeit |
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| the world cant understand me anymore |
[Dec. 2nd, 2001|11:50 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | close to the finish line | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Tocoronic - Sie wollen uns erz䨬en... the 500th time in a row... | ] |
dead link... |
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| how come im always the asshole? |
[Dec. 2nd, 2001|02:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indifferent | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | polar - bipolar dream | ] |
i could cry just for no reason
the world is falling down on me
stuck between the rocks of duty
the avalanche of time comes crashing
down i wish i could get out and run
i guess this is what they call life.
ps: my next bad is gonna be called holdenmcneal |
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| how little sleep can the body take before collapsing...? |
[Nov. 29th, 2001|09:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | dead | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | killswitch engage | ] |
damn... datamod exam today. i think the are totally insane. this was so difficult that i guess at least 70% failed... fuck. i also didnt get much sleep last night either. insomniac till 6 something. i talked to poserkid for a while. he seems really nice.. so not just mo-like bollo jerks are on the pxf board. if we lived in the same town we sure would be friends.
oh well... datamod, algorithms and history this weekend... yippieyayoh! bleh...
next week i got a job for life radio at a mall opening again - hopefully thisll get me some cash - im pretty broke considering i have to pay for the 2 plane tickets...
man... i gotta get some sleep... |
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